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“You look tired, Sam … sit down … have a cup of coffee with us,” Rabbi Green says, pulling out a chair.  

“Sounds nice … I could use a break,” says the proprietor. 
 

Looking around, Samantha Bates spots her assistant manager… 

“…Leslie, how about watching the floor for a bit? … I’m going to take five…”


…Hi, I’m Tony Baggz.  We’re here this morning at Sam’s. It’s a few days after Christmas and the wall decorations are still up. Right now, I’m sitting at a corner table and behind me on the wall is a jolly old elf … it’s a little vague though … either it’s Santa Claus or John Belushi in a red stocking cap … I’m still trying to decide.  Sam does like to decorate for a holidays. Of course, that’s part of the place’s charm.

The smell of fresh baked bread fills the air. It’s festive inside, but this morning, like the air outside, there’s a bit of a chill in the conversation.  At the next table Mr. Krankus is talking with Carolyn Andrews and in a way they are kindred souls.  Both lost their spouse and this morning they’re comparing notes … or maybe better, scars.

Carolyn and Sam have a lot in common.  Both are single moms in their mid thirties and each lost her husband; Sam to illness and Carolyn to “the other woman.”  Seems Carolyn’s husband one day up and decided marriage and fatherhood wasn’t for him … would have been nice if he did that before the three kids. And, according to Carolyn he’s taken up with a young blonde graduate assistant. Seems he’s a professor of philosophy and ethics at a small college about fifty miles south of the city. Ethics … well, I feel sorry for his students.
 

Cute and somewhat preppy, Carolyn lives around her kids’ schedules. She works part time in Joey’s jewelry store and in the evening for Rabbi Green’s wife, Judy, in her antique store. Support from her ex is sporadic and Carolyn struggles to keep things together, so the gang has taken her and her kids under their wing.
   

Carolyn sips her coffee and turns to Sam. Girl talk? … looks like it …

... let’s listen in…



“Sam, let me ask you something. After Dave died, Sam, how’d you cope?  I mean, you took a week off after the funeral and then came back and opened this place. How’d you do it?”

“Well, I felt I owed it to Dave, and of course there was Emily Ann. She was two at the time and I felt I had to keep things as normal as possible for her.  And … I had a lot of help from the blessed trinity.”

Carolyn’s arches her eyebrows.  “… What … you mean, prayer?”  
 
Nodding in the direction of Rabbi Green, Reverend Daniels, and Joey, Sam gently shakes her head and smiles. 
 
“No, those three,” she says chuckling.

“I don’t get it,” says Carolyn.

“Well in the first few months after Dave died, in a way, I was ... I don't know ... numb.  I just sort of drifted through the days.  Then the feelings began to creep in ... anger ... resentment ... fear.”

Pausing for a moment, Sam absentmindedly plays with her coffee cup.  And then looking up she motions at the store's interior.

"You see, it took a while but one day I finally realized I was alone here. Sure I could run the kitchen, but Dave had always handled the business end of things.”

Again Sam pauses, takes a sip of her coffee, and continues.


“But the main thing was the anger.  I was angry at everything … I was angry that people seemed to forget us … I was angry at Dave for dying … at God for taking him from me … not having someone to put his arms around me needed a hug ... not having someone to help raise Emily. I'd come in to work and I thought I was hiding my feelings pretty well, but Joey, Reverend Mike, Mr. Flirt over here and really, the rest of the gang ... they saw through it and finally got me to see it too.”
 

“What did you do?”

“Well, first I talked to Reverend Daniels.  He got me to see that it was okay to feel a little angry with God … He was big enough to take it. Once I did that, he finally got me to realize that cancer took Dave, not God, and blaming God was a waste of time.”

“And the business?” asks Mr. K

Sam nods at Joey.

“That’s where my knight in shining armor over there helped.  Joey had his accountant and lawyer come by and when they were done I knew I was going to be okay.”

Carolyn nods toward the Rabbi.

“You said the three of them.  What did the knight in the shining yarmulke do?”

“Oh, Mr. Flirt? ... he showed me I was sick.”

“Sick?” ... says Mr. Krankus, a puzzled look on his face … “what did you have?”

“Alzheimer’s..."  Sam pauses while Joey refills her cup … "well, a form of it, anyway ….”

The puzzled look on  the Colonel’s face turns to a confused one.  “I don’t get it,” he says.

“Sam chuckles to herself and looks across the table at Josh.  "You explain it, Rabbi."
 

“Orville, what’s Alzheimer’s,” Josh asks.

“A disease that attacks the brain.” 


“Right ... and Carolyn, what happens with Alzheimer’s?”

“Well … your memory … your mind fails.”

“Exactly … you can’t remember anything.”

Mr. K looks intently at the Rabbi. “I don’t get it … Sam's the picture of health.  Is there some form of Alzheimer's I don't know about?”

"There is ... the kind that quietly slips in the back door of your mind and stays ... the kind you don't realize is there ... call it the phantom variety."

Blank looks cross both Carolyn's and the Colonel's face as the Rabbi continues.
  

“I was sitting in here one day several months after Dave died. Watching Sam … well ... no matter how she tried, the anger and the hurt kept coming through. And then out of the blue she asked me why did it have to happen now … why did Emily have to grow up without her daddy … why did everyone stop caring … why did everyone seem to forget Dave ever existed … why me?"

Sam looks down at her coffee cup and chuckles.  "Not one of my better days, eh, Rabbi?"

"Actually, kid, it was like most others ... you just didn't realize it."

A faint look of regret crosses Sam's face as Josh continues. 

"I was about to offer her the canned comfort speech when the answer appeared out the window.”


“What did you see?” asks the Colonel.

“Miriam Birnbaum and her father.”

“Rabbi Birnbaum’s wife,” asks Carolyn?  “The Rabbi at the downtown synagogue?”

“Exactly.  Miriam’s dad has early stage Alzheimer’s, and the Alzheimer’s care center is a block over.  Evidently they had an appointment that morning. I was looking at Miriam and her dad and it was then that it hit me.  In Sam I saw the exact opposite of what was happening with Miriam's dad.  Instead of forgetting, Sam was hanging onto every hurt, every slight, every unhappy memory … her mind wasn’t empty; it was full … full of an emotional poison that was affecting her every moment.  And that’s what I pointed out to her.”

The colonel looks out the window. “Can’t forget,” he says as his voice trails off.

Sam smiles at Carolyn and Orville. 
 

“Josh showed me that I was holding on to so much anger," she says,  "that it had become part of me. And once I understood that, gradually I was able to let it go. It didn't happen overnight, but I started seeing that people did care ... just in ordinary, everyday ways.  And all the rest of the gang here were what I really needed … 'Bagels,' 'Gumshoe,' 'Bullets,' 'Ace', all of them ... all their wives ... I just knew they cared … I let them love me … I let them be my friends.

The look on Josh’s face turns philosophical. “And it made me realize something. I started asking myself, what’s worse, trapped in a mind incapable of remembering … or incapable of forgetting.  Your Christian belief … forgiving one’s enemy … it's one I had never held. But when I realized what Sam was going through, I understood what your Carpenter was saying. That to live a life holding on to every hurt, every slight, and every injustice robs a person of life itself.  Your Jesus was saying that  in forgiving, one finds health … and peace.” 

“You’re starting to sound a bit like Father Bob,” chuckles Mr. K.

Smiling softly to himself, Rabbi Green looks at the colonel.  “Orville, I have great respect for Bob ... and for his Jesus.  Bob's Jesus was a Jew and that teaching of his is often hard to accept.  But I have to admit … it has merit … and this lovely lady is proof. …”



An eye for an eye … an Old Testament concept … one still very much alive today.  Does it really provide justice, healing, or closure?  It’s an interesting question.  


We've been taught to think of hell as the pain of fire.  But I have heard it said that, in a way, hell may be more like ice … a soul frozen for all time in the self-loathing and self-hatred that comes from its realization of what it has forfeited because of the actions and choices it made in life. Hell on earth might be the same. A person frozen in the prison of a mind that remembers every hurt, every injustice … a mind frozen in anger, resentment, and hatred … frozen in memories that poison one's life … a mind that won’t let go … a person that won’t forgive.

In his youth, Joey was a golf professional and one thing he can tell you is that great golf champions ... and champions in all sports ... have a common trait … they don’t dwell on bad shots … or the bad breaks … they forget them, immediately.  People who are champions in life have the same ability.

… trapped in a mind incapable of forgetting … and forgiving.  Phantom Alzheimer's ... the backdoor variety … call it what you want, it's a devastating disease ...

… do you suffer from it? … or know someone who does?

… Thinkaboutit … I’m Tony Baggz …




Roll Tide



“Roooollllll Tide.” Cheers erupt throughtout the stadium as the referee signals touchdown.  It’s only eight minutes into the first quarter, and the "boys in black" are already up by fourteen on the “Skins.” 

Here in section 136 a young man everyone calls "Alabama" mimics the referee's signal and breaks into his trademark touchdown dance … uuhhh, touchdown dance … just think Riverdance meets the hula … you get the picture.

“Hey Alabama, we’re on a roll today!” someone six rows up hollers.

And down on the sideline, several of the players turn and give him the thumbs up sign. Alabama flashes his trademarked lopsided grin and returns the gesture.  Seems everyone here, from the fans, to the hot dog vendors, to the players, knows him.

The strange thing is though, we’re nowhere near Tuscaloosa … and this is a professional football game...


…Hi, I’m Tony Baggz.  As long as I can remember, the neighborhood has had these seats here at ‘the Bowl” … almost half of section 136 by my count.  You see, it's kind of a community thing.  The tickets belong to ‘Uncle’ Joey, the Spinelli brothers, Sammy ‘Bagels’, Vinnie “Bullets”, Jack Farrell, Walt Robinson, Doc Rogers, and a couple of the other guys. And St. Kate’s, First Presbyterian, and Christ the Redeemer Lutheran churches each have seats that parishioners who have passed on left to their respective churches. The rest of the guys in the neighborhood get together and split the cost of the tickets so those who don’t have season tickets get to go to several of the games. And each week some of the tickets go to high school students who excel in their studies.   This week it's four football players and two cheerleaders at St. Mark's Episcopal academy who've maintained an A average.  It's kind of an incentive and reward the guys have established to encourage the neighborhood kids to excel at their studies.  So each week, it’s a different group of faces.

The fella everyone calls Alabama is named Andy. He and his dad belong to Martin Williams’ church and the two of them are a fixture here on game day. His Dad, Pete is widowed, and disabled.  Pete was a fireman in Engine Company 5 and was severly injured several years back fighting a fire.  So Pete's on a disability pension and Pat makes sure, somehow, he and Andy have a ticket to each home game.  They’re sitting two rows in front of Fr. Bob and Pastor Williams and behind Martin a guy in a Redskins jacket has been watching Alabama with a puzzled look on his face. He leans forward and taps Reverend Williams on the shoulder … 
 

… Let’s listen in…


“Excuse me fella … name’s John. I don’t mean to be nosy but isn’t that guy a little lost?”

Turning to the stranger, Martin chuckles and extends his hand. “Hi, I’m Martin … this gentleman here is my friend, Bob.”

Father Bob turns, smiles, and shakes the stranger’s hand. “Nice to meet you.”

“I take it you’re referring to ‘Alabama’ down there?” asks Reverend Williams. 

“Right, what gives … I mean this isn’t exactly the Southeast Conference …?”

“Yea … I see your point.  Well, Alabama’s real name is Andy, and Andy has Down Syndrome.  And when he was just a toddler he nearly drowned and that complicated things a bit.  So Andy is a little ‘challenged’ as they say.”

“Okay, but what’s the Alabama part all about … I still don’t get the “Roll Tide” bit.”

“You and everyone else who’s here for the first time,” laughs Father Bob.  "... gotta admit, it must seem a little strange.”

Pastor Williams chuckles and continues.

“Andy’s dad, Pete, went to the University of Alabama.  He’s a die hard Crimson Tide fan. He told us that when Andy was little, the two of them would watch the games on Saturday afternoons.  Whenever Alabama would score Pete would raise his arms in a touchdown signal and holler ‘Roll Tide.’ Little Andy picked up on it.  So now anytime his team scores, Andy hollers “Roll Tide.” It doesn’t matter who’s playing."

“Or what sport,” says Father Bob “… you should see him at a hockey game.” 

It’s Mr. Burgundy and Gold’s turn to laugh. “Yea, I’ll bet that’s rich … especially if the Canadiens are playing.” He pauses for a moment, “And his touchdown dance… where’d that come from?”

“Even his dad doesn’t know where that came from … he just starting doing it one day. You’ll notice that we all cheer with Andy, but the dance … well he’s on his own there.  Heck, half of us would be in the ortho ward at the Med center if we tried that.”

Two rows down, someone passes Andy a couple of hot dogs.  Andy waves to his benefactor, looks around, ... and then gives them to a little kid sitting in front of him.  Watching intently, "Mr. Redskins" shakes his head and chuckles.

“I’ve noticed that he doesn’t seem to want for anything. That has to be the sixth hot dog someone’s sent him, and we’re barely at the end of the first quarter.”  

“Yea, everyone looks out for Andy,” says Father Bob. “We take care of him because he gives us far more than we give him." 

“What could he give you?”

Martin nods at the priest.  “Like my friend here says, perspective … and balance.” Watching Andy and the little boy to whom he gave the hot dogs laugh and high five each other, Reverend Williams chuckles, takes a long sip on his cola and continues …

“You see, in the beginning we all felt sorry for Andy and, truth be told, some of us avoided him. More than a few folks felt uncomfortable around him. Now, Andy's one of the reasons we all look forward to Sundays when he’s here. You see, to Andy, everyone here is his friend, and he loves his friends.

"Yea, I've noticed that." 

"You’ve seen that if someone buys him a hotdog or a drink he’ll eat the first one, and then just give the next ones away.  So we buy him hotdogs just to watch Andy take care of his friends.  We all agree, just watching him gives all of us a good feeling." 

Father Bob chuckles.  "Yea, and the hot dog vendors love this section."  Pausing to sip his coffee, the priest continues.

" ... and, there isn’t a mean bone in his body. Andy sees everyone as good and that simplicity coupled with his inability to dislike anyone makes him special … and unique. He brings out the good in everyone around him. What we originally saw as a limitation and a handicap, we now see as gifts.  In his own way, Andy reminds us that life is good and that joy lies in giving. In his own way, he shows us that our troubles aren’t all that bad, and that looking beyond the surface is where we find a simple and pervasive joy."

“Kinda like, don’t judge a gift by the wrapping paper,” the newcomer says, looking down at Andy.

“Exactly. He’s our good will ambassador and he’s infectious.  The TV cameras love him.  You can bet somewhere in this game his face’ll be up there on the big screen. He’s even been featured on TV a few times. Every one here in the city that’s a fan knows Andy and his cheer and his special touchdown dance. He’s kind of the unofficial mascot.” 

“OK, but what if the team loses, what happens then?”

“Doesn’t faze him at all," says Reverend Williams.  "He just knows they’ll win next week ... he has that simple faith. And in a way, it doesn’t matter ... just being here with his dad and his friends means everything to him. Like I said, simple.

Again the cheers erupt and another chorus of "Roollll Tide" cascades from section 136.   The three men turn their attention to the field as the prize rookie just ran a punt back sixty seven yards for another touchdown.

Andy’s on his feet ... another cheer and another crooked grin ... he's doing his dance … along with the kids from St. Mark's.  They're having a ball ... all of them.

Our newcomer taps Fr. Bob on the shoulder. 

“Ask ‘Alabama’ if he wants another hot dog … it's on me.”

Fr. Bob chuckles, “You know it’ll probably be eaten by someone three rows away.”

"Then buy him two.”


Father Bob turns to Reverend Williams and winks.

And in section 136, a man dressed in burgundy and gold  stands up with the rest of the gang, cheers the Boys in Black,  hollers “Roollll Tiiiide” and does his own funny little dance … along with the friends he’s just made…


Someone once asked Jesus if a young man’s blindness was punishment for his sins or the sins of his parents.  He replied it was neither; that his condition was so that the glory of God may shine through him.  Look hard enough at what society today considers a tragedy, a mistake, or a handicap, and it often becomes clear that the world misses an important point … or refuses to see it. Truth, honor, joy, happiness, don’t always come in the packages that we expect ... or think they should.  

All people are made in the image and likeness of God, including the handicapped, the Down Syndrome kids, the "challenged", and those marginalized and cast off ... consigned to the edges of society ... you know, seen but not heard. Understanding that, one can only believe that God doesn’t always neatly fit into our preconceptions of the value of human life, especially if that value is to be found only in those society considers worthy of acceptance ... and protection.

Angels are messengers, and when a person shines through his or her suffering, disabilities, or troubles, he or she may be teaching us something … if we are willing to listen. Ask yourself, in your own life, are you being sent a message … through an angel

… an angel who just might be known as, oh let’s say … Alabama …

…Thinkaboutit…I’m Tony Baggz.




RESPECT FOR MONEY
     

   

"Hey ... hold on a minute, guys."


Bending over, Father Bob Scanlon picks up a shiny new quarter. Turning to he rest of the guys, he holds the coin up for all to see. 
 

“Jackpot!” laughs St. Katie’s pastor.  

 

“C’mon Bob, the tickets are sixty eight bucks, a hot dog’s five, a beer’s eight … and you’re picking up nickels … get real,” says Mike Daniels, laughing softly to himself.

 

Walking over to the curb, the priest retrieves a stray dime.

 

As he straightens up Doc clasps him on the shoulder.

 

“Well, one thing’s certain my friend, there’s nothing wrong with your eyesight.”

 

“Looks like the mother lode out here today, Bob,” Billy Swanson laughs, shaking his head. “At this rate you’ll need a miner’s union card.”

 

"Collections been that bad, lately, Bob?” Rabbi Green says, an impish look in his eyes.

 

A sheepish smile crosses the priest’s face.

 

“Laugh if you want, but when you’re living in a box under an overpass out on the interstate, I’ll be warm and toasty in my retirement villa …”

  

Hi, I’m Tony Baggz. It’s a brisk November Sunday afternoon and we’re down here at “the Bowl” for a one o’clock game. The "Boys in Black" are playing the "Fish" and excitement is in the air … the team’s eight and two and it looks like they’ll make the playoffs this year.


Walking through the parking lot, we’re headed for home … home in this case being section 136, and we being Doc Rogers, myself, and several of the local clergymen.  “Alabama” and his dad, ‘Hammer’, “Mike the Russian,” "Gumshoe," the Spinelli brothers, “Pretzels,” and some of the other guys got here about ten minutes ago.

 

Seems St. Katherine’s pastor is doing some prospecting and from the sparkle in his eyes he has the look of a man who’s just found nuggets in the bottom of the gold pan. The gang’s familiar with his particular eccentricity and they get a kick out of having some fun with him. So I don’t think the good priest has heard the end of their good natured jests. Then again, I’ve known him for over fifteen years and he can hold his own…

 

… Let’s listen in....

  

“You know the way you dove on those coins makes me wonder if you’ve ever heard those words about the love of money, Bob ...” chuckles John Randall. “... want me to quote the Good Book?”   

 

“You know, if you want, Bob, we can duck behind that partition over there and I’ll hear your confession,” Rabbi Green teases.

 

Shaking his head, a mocking look of disbelief crosses Billy Swanson's face.

 

“A rabbi hearing a priest’s confession,” he says. “… that’s rich … what’s next … our esteemed Baptist colleague here performing a bris in the baptismal pool.”   

 

Martin Williams breaks into his trademark belly laugh.

“Marty the moil … there’s one for the books. Next thing you know, Josh here will pull out a rosary and lead the synagogue in a rousing rendition of “Ave Maria.”   

 

“Ave Maria … nice song … I especially like Pavarotti’s version,” the Rabbi says, a devilish gleam in his eye. “… “but, ah, don’t hold your breath … they’d run me out of town.”

 

“Hey, there’s another one,” says the priest, spying a coin under a blue minivan.  “Looks like my lucky day.”

 

Picking up a nickel he turns to his friends and, seeing the looks on their faces, he shrugs his shoulders and grins sheepishly.

 

“Hey guys, it’s just an old habit … call it a superstition if you want,” he says. “I never walk over money. It goes back to when I was a kid. Dad died when I was twelve and it was a struggle … a quarter was a week’s allowance, and five dollars was real money.” 

 

Winking at Rabbi Josh, a ‘watch this’ looks crosses Doc Roger’s face.

 

“Didn’t George Washington’s wooden teeth cost five dollars?”

 

“Naah, Doc …” says the Rabbi. “… you’re thinking of Blackbeard’s peg leg.”

 

Laughing and feigning the gait of a man walking with a limp, the good pastor resumes heading for the stadium gate, the rest of the gang in tow.

 

“Bob, like John said, though, wasn’t it your Carpenter who said love of money is the root of all evil?” Rabbi Green asks, catching up to him.

 

“Ah Josh, that He did … He said love … not respect. They’re two completely different things.

 

“… different ... how do you figure?”

 

“Well, love of money as Jesus meant it is a form of greed … amassing it, hoarding it ... acquiring it without putting forth an honest effort. And that profanes both man and money. That kind of attitude fails to recognize the sacred nature of money.”

 

A skeptical look crosses Doc’s face. “Sacred?” he says.

 

“Yea, Doc, sacred. We are made in the image and likeness of God and part of that likeness is to be creative, productive, and honest. And money is the tangible tribute we give to those attributes. To my way of thinking, making money honestly is a virtuous thing. A way of praying, really. And that makes money sacred.” 

 

“And you’re saying you see that in your Jesus, Bob?” the Rabbi asks.

 

“I do, Josh. He was a working man, a carpenter, a builder who used his intelligence and his creative and productive talents to produce products and services for others. I can only think he produced high quality work for a fair and equitable price. And being paid for His efforts in the coin of the realm, He had to have a great respect for money and what it represented. He made a profit from his labors and an honest profit is an honorable and virtuous achievement.”

 

Looking at the coins in his hand, Father Bob continues.

 

You see, to make money is to give value for value … to earn it by honest labor … to contribute positively to the world around us in the way God envisioned when he created us.

 

“Good point,” Doc says quietly ... almost to himself.

 

“On the other hand, to obtain money dishonestly, by coercion, immoral means, deception; to obtain it without an honest and equal exchange of trading value for equal value, is to prostitute money to the dark side of man’s nature … greed and laziness.

 

“And do we know people like that?” chuckles Martin Williams.

 

“Oh yea ... just look at the interest rates on credit cards nowadays.”

 

Mike Daniels shakes his head. “Amen to that,” he says.

"Sorry ... couldn't help myself," says the priest, a slightly apologetic look on his face. "... just got my credit card bill."


Looking at the agreement on his collegues faces, he chuckles and continues. 
 

“All work when performed honestly, is a tribute to God. The school janitor who works alone at night leaving the children and teachers a clean, healthy environment in which to learn, honors his money and his money honors him. He is more worthy than the businessman who cheats and steals under the guise of professional services rendered. That man profanes his money … he sins against it and against God.”

 

“So, you're saying work is a prayer,” asks Doc.

 

"Laborare et orare ... to work is to pray ... the motto of the Benedictines Monks out at St. Ed's if I'm I'm right, Bob?" says Reverend Williams, breaking in.

“Right, Martin ... all our actions, where value is given for value, are a form of prayer. We go to Sam’s in the morning and patronize her bistro. Sam in turn pays Doc to keep her little Emily healthy. Doc purchases a pair of earrings from Joey for his wife for their anniversary. And Joey pays Walt Robinson to build a deck on his house. All give value for value. All trade their God given talents and abilities for the value of the other. Life well lived, understanding the proper relationship of men to each other and to their Creator, is a prayer.

 

Father Bob pauses a moment, again looking at the coins in his hand.

 

"The coins in my pocket and the pieces of paper in my wallet are my congregation’s statement of the value they put on my effort and my work. To my way of thinking my work's as much a prayer as any other and that makes my money sacred."

 
The Baptist minister wanders over to the curb as Father Bob finishes speaking.

Bending over, he picks up a couple shiny new pennies. Laughing he holds them up for all to see.

“Eureka!” he says, a huge smile on his face.
 

John Randall shakes his head, a look of mock horror on his face.  

"Oh no ... it's contagious," he says.


"Well, it's a start," chuckles the Rabbi. 
 

“Keep at it Martin … though you’ve got a ways to go to catch up with the master here,” laughs Doc, nodding at Father Bob.

 

And from the back of the group the familiar voice of St. Katie’s pastor is heard …

 

“… Rookie …”

  

Money doesn’t corrupt a man … a man corrupts his money.

 

The love of money is the root of all evil … words too often misunderstood or used out of context. Money is that tangible, objective value society places on one’s work ... one's talents and abilities. And those talents and abilities are a reflection of the very nature of the creative and productive God in whose image we are made.  Understood correctly, money is sacred.

 

One can only believe that Jesus Christ, a builder in every sense of the word, understood and appreciated the true meaning of money. 

 

Shouldn’t we …

 Thinkaboutit … I’m Tony Baggz …


TANZANITE 



“Hey … good morning Marilyn, how’s Mike?”

The bell over the shop's door tinkles as Marilyn Rust closes it behind her.

“Good, Joey ... he's sleeping ... it's raining so I thought I’d let him catch up on his rest. He’s been pushing himself lately … business is off ... things are a bit slow at the club and he's been putting in a lot of extra hours. How about you?”

“Ah … I’m holding my own. Things have slowed down but still I’m fairly busy.

“Have you finished my bracelet?”

“…got it right here.”

Reaching into his box of completed repairs, Joey retrieves a gold medic alert bracelet and hands it to Marilyn.

“Ah, just like new … what do I owe you?”

“Nothing …  just adjusted the tension in the clasp … gave it a quick buff ...  all it needed.”

“You’re sure I don’t owe you anything."

“No … it was simple ... only took a couple minutes."

"Thanks ... that's nice of you.  By the way, what are you working on?”

“A tanzanite pendant … a custom job for Christmas.”

“Tanzanite, what’s that?"

A wry smile crosses Joey’s face.

“A whisper … from God….”



Hi, I’m Tony Baggz.  It’s morning here in Joey’s jewelry shop. "Mike the Russian"'s wife, Marilyn just walked in. Seems she's the first customer of the day. It’s a couple of months before Christmas and Joey is working on this year’s Christmas offerings. His work is known throughout the city and everyone who appreciates fine jewelry has to stop by and see what the master has come up with for the holiday season.  Heck, even people who never buy jewelry can’t resist stopping by for a peek … and for the proprietor’s unique perspective on the things he sells. Joey has a penchant for finding the meaning behind the glitter.

Walking around behind his desk he picks up a small folded paper. Setting it on the counter, he opens it and produces a beautiful royal blue stone. It’s teardrop shaped and about the size of a quarter.  Looking at the gem, Marilyn’s eyes light up. I think it has definitely caught her fancy. And from the question in her eyes, I can see she wants to know more.  

Let’s listen in…


“So that’s a tanzanite.  You know, I’ve seen it in the mall but I've never paid it much attention.  What they call tanzanite there is light lilac or pale blue ... nothing special. But this ... this is really impressive ... I’ve never seen anything like this.”

“Well, there are different grades and it does come in pale shades like the ones you saw … but this,” Joey says, gesturing toward the gem “…well, this is as good as it gets.”

“It’s beautiful ... why haven't I seen it before?”

“Well, first, in shades of royal blue this deep it's quite expensive ... probably out of the reach of much of the buying public. Second, it’s a 'soft' gemstone ... for a long time it was more of a collector’s stone so it wasn't actively pursued by gemstone miners. You see, it only comes from one place in Africa so it's somewhat rare, and given the lack of demand for anything other than blue sapphires, there just wasn't a good reason to go looking for it."
 
"Makes sense," Marilyn says, nodding in agreement.

"And, for centuries sapphire was the only deep blue gem that the public was aware of.  It took Tiffany’s in New York to popularize it back in the 70’s so it’s only been around for about forty years or so.”

“Why only forty years?  If things like amethyst and ruby and sapphire and the others have been around for centuries, you'd think something this beautiful would have been around for that long too."

"Well, probably the main reason is that when it comes out of the ground, it’s a rather unappealing brown color … kinda like smoky quartz … something only worth a buck or two a carat."

Marilyn rotates the gem in the morning light. You can see by the look in her eyes she is captivated by the gem.

"So why did they finally decide to promote it?"

“Well, obviously because its beautiful.  And, as fine sapphires increased in price the jewelry trade looked for an alternative. When it was first brought to the public's attention, those who bought and sold it understood that it was to be worn gently because it's a 'soft' gemstone ... as many collector's gemstones are.  Even now I generally only put it in earrings and pendants ... like the one I’m making.  It doesn’t wear all that well in a ring … unless you treat it very very gently.”

“So how does it get to be this color if it’s naturally brown?”
 

“It has to be heated for a sustained period of time for the color to change to the beautiful deep blue you see.”

“So ... the 'whisper from God' ... where does that come from?”

Joey chuckles softly. "You know me too well, Marilyn," he says, a playful smile crossing his face.
 
Stepping beside Marilyn, he gestures to the gem in her hand.

“Think of it Marilyn.  How is this gemstone all that much different from people themselves?”

“… you tell me …,” Marilyn says, the inquisitive look in her eyes intensifying.

“Well, most gemstones when they come from the ground aren’t all that impressive. They don't look anything like what you see in a the finished product. Especially gems like diamonds,  tanzanites, aquamarines, rubies, and sapphires. You see, they're kinda like people."

“Interesting … and that's the whisper from God?”

“Precisely ... a gem like this is a silent witness to an eternal truth."

"An eternal truth...?"

"That God rarely produces a finished product."

"How do you mean ...?"

"Well, in their natural state, precious gemstones sometimes come out of the ground in nicely formed crystals, but more often they are just fragments or white or colored pebbles needing to be heated, cut or faceted ... waiting for their beauty to be brought out … to be completed … finished." 

“And you’re saying that just like the change in this stone from an ugly brown to a beautiful blue cannot happen without effort, neither can we become what we are intended to be without an effort on our part.  And that’s something that God had in mind from the beginning of time.”

“Right. And how many people are afraid of the heat and the fire of life ... it's trials and challenges.  And because of that fear they fail to live up to their potential and bring out the beauty within."

Again, Marilyn pauses to admire the beauty of the gem as Joey continues his thought.

“And not only ourselves, but other’s too.” 

“Others … how so?”

“Well, take children. Left to their own devices most kids would just coast ... content to put in a minimum of effort, right?”

“Ugh ... right,” Marilyn says, rolling her eyes.  “… like Bobby. It was like pulling teeth to get him to do his school work … or his chores.”

Chuckling, Joey shakes his head. Bobby is Marilyn's oldest boy and he's known their kids since they were little.

“Exactly. Holding people accountable and inspiring them push themselves to be the best they can … that’s what I’m talking about. Too many people today don’t recognize that … they shirk their responsibility in the name of 'giving others their space,' 'minding their own business,' 'letting them find their own way' … or some such nonsense.”

Looking again at the gemstone in her hand, Marilyn smiles. 

“You make a pretty persuasive point, Joey. Then again, you always do.”

Joey laughs softly to himself.

“And one other thought … how disappointed would the Creator be if man didn’t complete the beauty of this gem … didn’t finish what God Himself started and just settled for leaving it an uninspiring brown stone…?”

“… and the Creator is just as disappointed if we do the same thing?” Marilyn asks, finishing Joey’s thought.

“Exactly.”

Handing the gemstone back to Joey, Marilyn laughs softly, a sparkle in her eye.

“You know Joey; I was wondering what to put in my letter to Santa this year.  Now … I think I know …”

Joey chuckles as a impish smile crosses his face.

“…Won’t Mike be surprised …”



God loves the matter of His creation and He speaks to us in the silent witness of creation. Jesus certainly did. He used water, wine, bread, fish, mud, stone, sand, grain, fruit, and finally the wood of a cross to accomplish all He came to do.

Like a fine gemstone, man is born incomplete; designed to be finished by the heat and pressure of the trials and challenges of life. Question is; how many of us fail to do so? How many of us are content to remain as we are, or worse, as others expect us to be. How many of us are unwilling to expose ourselves to the fires of life that refine us and bring out our inner beauty … a beauty God intended from the beginning of time.  

Society often shouts at us in a myriad of ways that if we don’t measure up to its expectations, if we don’t adopt its moral code and walk in lockstep with its dictates, shouting hosanna to what it deems to be beautiful and valuable, then we are merely ordinary ... unattractive ... of little worth. And unless we dance to her siren song we are relegated to the margin.

Yet God speaks silently, or maybe gently, to us through his creation, telling us that like the beauty of nature we have tremendous beauty within. Why … because each of us is made in His image and likeness. An image we must bring out … a likeness we must finish.

….Who are you going to listen to...?

“If you are lukewarm, I will vomit you out of my mouth.” Do these words speak, not so much to a halfhearted resignation to live a halfhearted existence …

… but rather an unwillingness to become the jewel God intended us to be?

…
Thinkaboutit … I’m Tony Baggz.


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